All I’ve wanted to eat for the past 2 days is hot dogs.  Which is kind of weird, but it is hot dog weather I guess.  Yesterday we went to a hot dog “restaurant” and I had 2 chili-cheese dogs and then today we grilled our own and had some baked beans (and I thought I was gassy before!).  I’m sure 4 hot dogs in 2 days is not good for you.  I won’t have any tomorrow =)

At the store today I bought 2 boxes of FRER tests and they have 3 in a box, so I have 6 tests! (ok, 5 because I had to test at 6dpo – BFN, duh).  I WILL NOT test again until Thursday, 10dpo.  I just have to keep telling myself that so I don’t use all the tests.

So, one minute I’m totally convinced that I’m pg, and the next I’m totally convinced that I have wicked PMS.  I was showing DH my chart today and I explained the temping to him (my temps are good) and he said “why don’t you just take a test” so then I had to explain that it’s too early and I’d get a negative.  But now I want to test….even though I KNOW it’s too early.  I’ve had a crazy upset stomach for the past few days….I was driving yesterday and thought I’d puke.  Then I had some lemonade and got heartburn.  And the gas….oh my.  I’m really hoping this will be it….but I know that God will bless us with a child when it’s the right time.  I do believe that everything happens for a reason, even if you don’t know what the reason is.

In other news, DH and I are looking into getting a new car…one that has more room between the back seats and the front to properly accommodate a rear facing car seat.  So, that’s exciting, but we haven’t made any decisions yet.

So, I don’t know. I have “symptoms” but as I said before it could be PMS, something random, or psychosomatic. My bbs are sore, and I had some cramping yesterday, but none today. I also have wicked gas and am feeling bloated and constipated. And my scale said I gained a whole pound since yesterday – bloat! I’ve been sooooo tired, sleeping after work and then at night, but last night, even though I was dead tired, I didn’t sleep well – I kept waking up and feeling groggy. And yesterday I was a little dizzy. I won’t know for a while…at least 5 days until I can test, and 9 until AF is due. The 2ww sucks!

I got crosshairs on FF today. It says I o’d on Monday. And my chances og getting pg are “good” – but not “excellent” since we didin’t BD on O day. I still feel like I o’d on Sunday though.

I’m trying not to totally psych myself out about it.

But, this is how I feel today:
Headache
Slight cramp in lower left side (I’m hoping it’s implantation, but it’s probably gas)
Queasy
Exhausted

But that’s it. And I keep telling myself that it’s too early to have symptoms….or it could be allergies……or completely psychosomatic.

I started painting today. I’m using 2 colors – yellow and green. I’ve started with the yellow, which is “Tigger’s Tummy” by Disney/Behr. I haven’t picked the green yet.

I painted after work today and got about 1/4 of the room done. DH is at a conference in Vegas this week, and he knows I’m doing this “project” – I hope he’s as happy with the results as I am (so far anyway).

It’s finally real. It’s not like I’m just painting to paint. We’re actually going to TTC. God willing, there will be a baby in there in 2009.

DH and I both got awesome raises. My last day of BCP is April 5 and then we’re TTC! I can’t wait! And I can’t wait to chart! I’m so excited I can hardly contain myself