On Wednesday, I fell.  I had been feeling seriously ill all day (and the day before) and hadn’t been able to eat much, so maybe I was a little dizzy/weak.  So, we have these 3 stairs from our kitchen to the side door, and I was going to go get the mail.  I hit the first step, my feet went out from under me, and I slid down all 3 stairs.  I was freaked out and my butt really hurt.  I also hurt my arm (rug burn) and my wrist a little.  I waited until yesterday morning to call the doctor, since I fell after hours.  I fully expected them to tell me that the baby is cushioned and it’s fine since I wasn’t experiencing any cramping or bleeding.  But they had me come in.  All the doctor did was ask me what happened, tell me that the baby is cushioned, and then……he took out the DOPPLER!  I haven’t heard the heartbeat on the little Doppler yet, only on the ultrasound, which is more sensitive.  I was so afraid he wouldn’t find it, but there it was, nice and loud and strong at 11w4d.  I was so happy and relieved.

AND, yesterday when we came home there was a box by the door.  It was a present from my friend who lives in CT, who I haven’t seen in almost a year!  She sent a card and a twinkle twinkle star that plays the song when you squeeze it and has a little flip “book” on the front with the lyrics – it is sooooo cute, a perfect crib toy, and baby’s FIRST toy!

My glucose results were normal!

Tuesday night (9w2d and the day after my fantastic u/s), I had some bright red spotting.  It was just a small amount, and only twice when I wiped.  After I freaked out and told DH, I went back upstairs to the bathroom and checked again and there was nothing.  I called the doctor and he said since the ultrasound was fine the day before that it’s nothing to worry about unless it got heavy.  It didn’t – it didn’t even reappear.  I’m wondering if it was caused by straining earlier in the day during a BM (TMI, I know).

Yesterday I had my 3 hour glucose test.  It wasn’t that bad, but by the end I was STARVING.  I was so hungry that I was shaking when I was trying to eat.  I’m hoping the test went well.  I should find out next week.

DH and I are still trying to decide if we want to tell anyone yet.  We were figuring we would, after the u/s was so good, but then after the spotting incident – it’s taken me a few days to get my head cleared and emotionally back on my feet.  I know it wasn’t much, but I had a major freak out.  I’m having a hard time keeping it to myself when I just want to shout it from the rooftops, especially since the doc said my risk of m/c was down to like 5%, but I have my next u/s on July 2, which isn’t THAT far away.  And I’ll be 12w3d.  I just don’t know.

Today was my 9w ultrasound!  The baby came up on the screen right away and measured 9w1d, so they “changed” my due date from Jan. 12 to Jan. 11.  The baby looks just like a blob!  But when you carefully look at the print out, you can see which end is which!!!  Heartbeat was 167bpm (old wives tale says it’s a girl there).  And the tech turned on the sound and we HEARD the heartbeat too – I wasn’t expecting that.  It was so amazing and overwhelming.  Doctor said my chances of not miscarrying are now 95%, so we may start telling soon.  I’ve already started planning my pregnancy scrapbook.  I haven’t officially started making one because I was superstitious, but now I feel ok about it.

I did “fail” my random glucose test though.  Normal range is 60-99 and I got a 142, but I’m pretty sure it was from my lunch (and a brownie) that I had an hour before.  But the doctor wants me to go in for a 3hr test.  Wednesday I’ll be doing that.  It’s more annoying than anything – I’m pretty sure it’ll come out ok.

Next appointment (second OB, Doppler, and NT scan) is scheduled for July 2!

You should never send your pregnant, hungry wife to the grocery store.

Well, we got back from vacation yesterday.  It was wonderful and relaxing and perfect.

Tomorrow is my first ultrasound.  I’m so nervous.  I’ll be 9 weeks exactly, so we should see the heartbeat.  I really can’t wait, but on the other hand I am just so scared about it – kind of like how I was scared that at my first appointment they would tell me that I wasn’t really pregnant!  DH is coming with me – I think he’s excited, but he keeps his emotions really close to the vest – maybe it’ll be more real to him after the ultrasound.

We’ve been talking about names, and the Baptism, and the nursery, and maybe taking some unpaid leave after maternity leave runs out.  It’s starting to get real and exciting, but I don’t want to get too excited before I know everything is ok.

DH is scouting air conditioners right now – I hope he finds one because it is HOT!

So, not too much to write about lately – just a lot of upset stomach, heartburn, tired, etc.

But, today was my first OB appointment.  It was pretty anticlimactic.  The nurse brought us in and asked a bunch of questions.  She gave me some stuff and a lab slip, and then the doctor came in.  He asked how I was feeling and I said “nervous,” so he decided to offer me an ultrasound so I would see the heartbeat and feel less nervous (I think he’d like it if I didn’t feel nervous at all).  So, he did the pelvic exam and said everything looked/felt normal and perfect!  So, since we’re going on vacation tomorrow, he said we’d set up the U/S for when I got back.  So, June 9 we get to see the baby!

Then we went back to work.  I decided I should go get my blood done and I knew there was a lab not too far from where I work, so I walked there.  BAD IDEA!  It was a little further than I thought, and now I have blisters!  And they lady took 12 vials of blood!

I’m so excited for my trip and the upcoming ultrasound!  I feel so blessed.

Oh, the hormones!  I had a complete meltdown today.  I just started saying something to DH and then started to cry a little and then I was just crying and crying and DH didn’t quite know what to do.  But then we went for a walk, and now I’m feeling better.

I’m retaining water like nobody’s business.  It’s actually kind of scary, as my mother had preeclampsia.  I need to seriously lay off the salt and drink more water to keep this under control.  I’m heavy as it is, so I need to keep my pregnancy weight gain to a minimum.  I gained “5lbs” in one day – I’m pretty sure it was from all the salt I had the day before.  EEK….I’ll need to talk to my doc about this at my appointment.

Another week has passed.  I’m now at 5 weeks, 35 left.  My cramping has gotten a lot better- I only get a few cramps every now and then.  My boobs are terribly sore and I’m really tired, but that’s it.  I’m very grateful not to have any morning sickness at this point, but sometimes I wonder if I did if it would seem more real.  I’m still not sure it’s completely sunk in yet – even after 7 bfps.

We told my in-laws over the weekend – they were here visiting and seeing our house for the first time.  And they were so excited.  We told them that it’s still early and that we’re cautious at this point, but they were still thrilled – and it’ll be important if something does happen (God forbid) that we have family there to support us.

I got my hair cut today and it’s awesome.  And they washed it with “lavender mint” shampoo, which was fantastic.

And I had a dream that we were having twins.