So, not too much to write about lately – just a lot of upset stomach, heartburn, tired, etc.

But, today was my first OB appointment.  It was pretty anticlimactic.  The nurse brought us in and asked a bunch of questions.  She gave me some stuff and a lab slip, and then the doctor came in.  He asked how I was feeling and I said “nervous,” so he decided to offer me an ultrasound so I would see the heartbeat and feel less nervous (I think he’d like it if I didn’t feel nervous at all).  So, he did the pelvic exam and said everything looked/felt normal and perfect!  So, since we’re going on vacation tomorrow, he said we’d set up the U/S for when I got back.  So, June 9 we get to see the baby!

Then we went back to work.  I decided I should go get my blood done and I knew there was a lab not too far from where I work, so I walked there.  BAD IDEA!  It was a little further than I thought, and now I have blisters!  And they lady took 12 vials of blood!

I’m so excited for my trip and the upcoming ultrasound!  I feel so blessed.

Oh, the hormones!  I had a complete meltdown today.  I just started saying something to DH and then started to cry a little and then I was just crying and crying and DH didn’t quite know what to do.  But then we went for a walk, and now I’m feeling better.

I’m retaining water like nobody’s business.  It’s actually kind of scary, as my mother had preeclampsia.  I need to seriously lay off the salt and drink more water to keep this under control.  I’m heavy as it is, so I need to keep my pregnancy weight gain to a minimum.  I gained “5lbs” in one day – I’m pretty sure it was from all the salt I had the day before.  EEK….I’ll need to talk to my doc about this at my appointment.

Another week has passed.  I’m now at 5 weeks, 35 left.  My cramping has gotten a lot better- I only get a few cramps every now and then.  My boobs are terribly sore and I’m really tired, but that’s it.  I’m very grateful not to have any morning sickness at this point, but sometimes I wonder if I did if it would seem more real.  I’m still not sure it’s completely sunk in yet – even after 7 bfps.

We told my in-laws over the weekend – they were here visiting and seeing our house for the first time.  And they were so excited.  We told them that it’s still early and that we’re cautious at this point, but they were still thrilled – and it’ll be important if something does happen (God forbid) that we have family there to support us.

I got my hair cut today and it’s awesome.  And they washed it with “lavender mint” shampoo, which was fantastic.

And I had a dream that we were having twins.

I feel like I’ve gained 20 lbs in the past week. In reality, I haven’t. I’m just bloated. Like woah. I’ve taken to wearing a size up in my pants (i recently lost a bunch of weight, so I have a larger size conveniently hanging around).

Today I’m at 4 weeks! I am so happy about this. To celebrate the-day-that-AF-would-have-come, I took another HPT and got a blazing positive!

All in all, I felt ok today except for some major gas and constipation (tmi, sorry). According to bellybelly.com.au (found the link from someone else – I don’t live in Australia), the baby is “now classified as an embryo” YIPEE!!

I am completely exhausted.  I got up today at 8, came downstairs, had some OJ and breakfast, went back upstairs and went back to sleep until 11:30.  And I’m still tired now!  I did manage to go to the store today and I tried to buy really good things.  I bought food for dinner each night (and none of the dinners is too labor intensive, so I should be “awake” enough after work to make them).  I bought fiber enriched cereal – I hope it doesn’t taste like twigs.  I bough yogurt, and milk, and fruit, and all kinds of good stuff.  And some junky stuff too, but I figure it’s ok.

Looks like tacos for dinner tonight.  If I can stay awake long enough.

My in-laws are coming next weekend.  We only see them a few times a year because they live really far away.  So, DH is cleaning the house.  I went to the store and otherwise can’t get off my ass but he’s cleaning.  So far, he hasn’t complained, but I hope he’s not getting resentful.  We’re planning on telling them when they come because otherwise we won’t see them for another year or something – so this is really the only in-person time.  I keep praying, every night, that everything will be ok.  I have no idea why I am SO scared about it – other people don’t seem to be as paranoid/terrified/anxious as I am.  I think I’ll be more relieved on Monday when we hit the 4 week mark.

My back is killing me! And I’m sure sitting in a cubicle has a lot to do with it. Still getting some cramping. All in all, I’m feeling good. I’m still really nervous about the whole thing though.

It doesn’t matter how many times I read that some cramping in early pregnancy is normal, as long as there’s not bleeding as well, blah blah blah – It doesn’t help when I get a twinge of a cramp.  I’ve heard (on my favorite message board) that Fiber One bars help with the constipation.  I’ll have to check that out.

Came home from work today and collapsed into bed until shortly after 8.  Then I got up for dinner and Grey’s.  I’m pooped.  Thank God tomorrow is Friday!

I am pregnant.  I AM PREGNANT!  It’s like the weirdest thing to say.  I took a FRER yesterday morning and got a faint line, but DH said he couldn’t see it.  So, yesterday after work I took another one and got a line.  A real line.  And he saw it.  And we had our happy moment.  Then I took another one this morning, 10dpo – and the line was about the same as yesterday. 

So, I called the doctor and I was expecting them to want me to come in for a confirmation.  But the didn’t – they scheduled me for appx. 8 weeks, on May 29th.  So, I went to the drug store and got a digital.  I peed on it in the bathroom at work and sat there while the hourglass flashed.  And then:

PREGNANT

Words cannot even come close to describing how I feel.

I’m shocked, and amazed, and thankful, and so much more.  I’m also gassy and bloated, which is giving me a little cramp (now I know why babies cry when they have gas). And I constantly have to pee.  The amount of water I’m drinking doesn’t help that.  Oh yeah, and I’m tired because I was so wound up last night that I had trouble sleeping.

I’m praying that everything will be ok and that this is really it for us.